This was my first fresh 48 session. All my life hospitals have been an issue for me. I just can’t hang with them. I had clients ask me to photograph at the hospital after their baby was born and I would turn it down. I had friends and family not understand why I couldn’t visit in them when they were there. I mean you guys, it was SO bad! My anxiety would build up and as soon as I stepped in, even if I told myself I could do it, I would hear in the distance, “Bethann….. Bethann” and then hear a crack of smelling salts. I am not joking when I say I probably pass out 1-2 times a year. I wake up from a horrible dream sequence drenched in sweat with zero energy in my body for the rest of the day. This could happen in the dentist office. So lame, I know. So needless to say I never wanted anyone to depend on me for something so important and then pass out on them. But after having a baby something changed. After Sam was born it was like a switch was partially flipped. I say partially, because the last time I went to my neurologist office I still passed out, but going to the hospital to see a brand new life, was just such a happy thing. I cant explain it, I think one thing that I have always associated with hospitals is pain and suffering. And sure, the mom that just gave birth is most likely in pain, but the outcome of that birth is something so beautiful and pure and joyous! It is just amazing! I am so glad I was able to document these special moments for my friends and can’t wait for a chance to do it again!
